thank you! I think that it's probably ramped up right now due to anxiety. I've got my next MRI in about two weeks, and I'm anxious about both ways it could go. No lesions=being dismissed by the neurologist with a diagnosis of FND and no medical intervention, more follow up appointments to fight for testing. Lesions present... not sure how my neurologist would respond to them. The waiting is so frustrating, and I'm not sure which office my appointment is in. So I don't know if they'll be able to play music for me, I don't know if I'll get the pretty nature pictures to look at, I don't know how far I'll have to walk.
And when I get anxious, I've noticed that several of my symptoms get very severe. Looks like I'm in for a turbulent couple of weeks. But I'll get through it.
I've got my birthday coming up, literally just before the appointment. I do a reverse birthday at work, I visit all of my coworkers as I make my rounds and give them candy and treats as I go. This year I think I'll do yo-yos for the treats. As I drop off the goods, I say 'happy birthday to me' and walk off with a smile. So that should be fun π.
Sending all the love π