thank you. Growing up, with our birthdays four days apart and a low income family, we always split the difference to a weekend. It's hard and I miss him. It took me 10 years to even be able to talk about it. His passing is ultimately what lead me to where I am now. And every year I honor him. That's probably half of the motivation for me to turn my birthday into bringing joy to the people around me.
I'm taking Monday off work entirely for the MRIs, but I have frisbees to take in on Tuesday and everyone gets one!
Turning 40 has unearthed some buried emotions, and I'm working on accepting them. My best friend in the whole world died August 1st, 2023, three months before her 40th birthday. She battled cancer for several years, and we knew it was coming. And now, I just carry these souls that have changed my life with me. My brother, my best friend, my Dad, all the other friends I have lost along the way. They are a part of my motivation every day to reach another benchmark and to continue to bring joy into the world. Because they gave me joy.
For my birthday, all I wanted to do was relax at home with my husband and our roommate. Speak with my mom and sister on the phone. Relish life and enjoy it. And I did! I don't care that my body is uncomfortable, I don't care about the uncertainty today, I don't mind the twitches and tremors and wobbles. I'm just celebrating.
And I'm open to midlife crisis ideas. I've already done the shaved head, the career change (more than once), the hitchhike around the country beatnik, the run off to Vegas and get married by Elvis, and need something good for my 40s. I'm thinking maybe surprise trip to Hawaii? I've got to wait until at least 50 before the sports car or RV purchase. π€£
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