MS Changed Everything

I'm struggling in so many ways. I feel like remembering who I was before is like remembering a friend who passed away. The old me is gone, never to return. I was strong and active. I could work and drive. That is gone. I'm stuck at home trying my best but it's so hard. I have 3 kids and this has become a burden to them and my husband. I try to keep a smile on my face, but I'm crying inside. Meds make me feel worse. Waiting on disability reconsideration. They denied me once. They said they don't care about my doctor's opinions. I feel tired and lost.