A big inspiration to me...

I was diagnosed with "MS" in October 2013 and I was shattered in a million peaces my world had just ended. The first thing I thought of was how was I going to cope? I was a full time carer for my mum who fell and broke her hip back in 2009 at the age of 56. Her mobility was poor she needed help with showering helping her get dressed etc and had to cook clean and wash clothes as well as holding down a full time job. But I still did it somehow. Mum's health deteriorated the following year what we thought she was having a stroke she was in hospital then she was sent to another for 2 months solid the doctors was trying to find a diagnosis and then finally after inundated tests the outcome was "primary progressive MS" a year to the date from when I was diagnosed. October 2014 my world just shattered beneath me again. Mum needed round the clock care this time and although I wanted too I just couldn't do it. I had to make the hardest decision of my life and put mum into a care home I was so distraught. But no matter what I was up at the care home visiting mum every day after work I knew my MS was getting worse but I chose to ignore it then I fell into a really bad relapse. I was just so exhausted. Unfortunately mums health was declining big time she stopped walking completely after 5 months of being diagnosed. But some how although being totally bed bound we got her through the year. She used to say to me "if it wasn't for you my dear baby I wouldn't be here." "You are my life line." And deep down in my heart I used to say to myself "my dear mum you are the reason why I wake up in the morning." She was my BIG inspiration. I wouldn't know what to do without her I thought. We got her through her 63 birthday in December 2015 and Xmas of 2015. The new year had begun of 2016 and mums health was declining fast. She was fighting infection after infection... And then sadly on the 25th January 2016 mum lost her battle she was tired and her body couldn't fight it any more she passed away in my arms she closed her eyes and went to sleep. And now I'm lost without my best friend...my mum my whole world. And that's why my story is called a big inspiration because that is what she was to me and still is. I feel crushed inside but I know she would want me to be strong. My mum my big inspiration. Thank you for reading my story.