I've lived with the title & been treated for MS since 2012. I say it like that because, TODAY, I'm at a point I no longer understand my own body. I'm feeling confused & alone, questioning my care, my treatment, if I'm being heard. Yes, it's known I've dealt/deal with other stress-related family issues & have since my diagnosis. I went thru a high risk pregnancy, my son premature suffered a brain hemorrhage in utro just 2 years before, I was sick ever since. I've been blessed that all my symptoms have not been constant but when & what I experience has changed me & my life. Many haven't understood & chose to leave over support. So, I've been living a life that's totally not me. I've been so fatigued the bed has been my best friend & I'm sleeping away the day. My speech is robotic at times & words are lost, feeling embarrassed because in the past I've been made fun of over it.(symptom I've dealt with for years.) Tremors & dizzy spells. Also my comprehension, organization has suffered. I contacted my neurologist, no appointments, a week later I received a call he wants me to get an MRI, Scheduled 3 weeks out. My MRI was last Friday, I phoned my neurologist office the nurse informing me; "There's no changes in my MRI." So, from that I should be fine.is this a normal way MS patients are treated? Thru out the years I have been able to "feel" my body experiencing the symptoms, what I've learned ~ once an area of the brain has been affected by Sclerosis (scaring) it's permanent. Yes, stress & depression can bring on a flair. I don't waste my time trying to see the neurologist when I'm feeling my usual. When something is different or affecting my days are to me a sign ~ I may need to be seen. I'm confused about being told "Nothing has changed" on my MRI along with" It's due to stress or depression."
Majority of visits I've left with only those words.
The neurologist themselves have made me feel what I'm experiencing is because of my personal stress & depression, I need to suck it up, work it out, there's really nothing they can do besides my normal daily medication.This time I really feel disappointed & angry! I'm also a breast cancer survivor 3 yrs out from chemo/radiation.
Am I alone? Feeling this way after so long living with MS. I'd appreciate anyone sharing their experiences & thoughts.
Physically & mentally dealing with my symptoms and having my neurologist just take the one approach without seeing me in person. I should add~because I haven't had a major relapse he previously stated (in 2022) my MS was in remission. (The symptoms I'm experiencing are ones I've dealt with over the years.)
Thank you all for taking your time & reading my post! 😊✌️❤️