thank you for sharing these thoughts. They are ones that I know so many of us can relate to in this community. MS is incredibly unpredictable and that can make life - especially any time of planning in life challenging.
I've included a couple of articles below that speak to this experience that you might find helpful and really relatable.
I think having this community of people who get it and understand firsthand the realities of the day-to-day experience of this diagnosis is really helpful. It's comforting to be reminded that we are not in this alone.
https://multiplesclerosis.net/living-with-ms/unpredictable-unreliable
https://multiplesclerosis.net/living-with-ms/explaining-unpredictable-fatigue
Best
Alene, moderator